Have you ever felt so lost and confused that you just don’t know what to do or where to go? Have you felt like there is a huge weight on you that can’t be lifted? During that time of your life, did you feel like no one can ever love you because you keep on making a mistake after mistake? What did you do when you feel that way? Do you cry out to Jesus? Do you find somewhere else to go? Do you talk this out to someone who cares about you? Do you leave it all behind? What do you do?
To be honest, the beginning of last week was tough for me. I felt lost and I didn’t know where to go. I wanted to just get out of the house and just get away from everything that was going on at my house at the time. I was done dealing with everything and I couldn’t take it any longer. I needed peace. I needed Jesus. I needed Him to fix everything. I felt broken again and I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what He wanted me to do with my life. I was afraid. I felt like all of my homework I had and getting ready for the book announcement was weighing me down. I kept on worrying about when would be the best day to make the announcement and questioning if it was the right time until I realized it is on God’s timing. His timing is always perfect and I am so thankful I listened to Him whenever I did. This huge weight I felt has been lifted off of my shoulders!
Before God and I decided to announce my book last Friday, I ended up making this decision overnight on September 19, to pack up my things and spend a couple of nights at my Grandparents’ house to just clear my mind from everything. It was honestly the best decision I have ever made. I love spending time with my Grandparents and their house is always so peaceful. I even got all of my homework done just by being over there. I had to just leave everything all behind me and it was the best thing for my mental health.
I knew I made the right decision because on the very last night I stayed over there, we prayed the rosary together in the living room with all of the lights off. At that exact moment, I felt at peace and everything would be ok. I thought to myself, God really does have a plan for my life and I need to trust Him fully on this. He always knows exactly what I need. I try to do my best to always listen to that small, quiet voice in my mind because you know what, that voice is God.
To the ones who feel like no one can ever love you and you talk yourself into thinking you are unlovable. Even to the ones who ask themselves, how can anyone ever love them especially when they keep on messing up? I know there are people out there who believe that God can never love them and it is sad. If you are one of those people who feel that way, I want you to know that God is reaching out His hands to you. If you feel lost, I want you to know that God is saying to you today, “My Child, I will lead you in the way I want you to go.” He will calm all of your fears and worries that you may have.
God loves you SO much and He looks past all of your mistakes you made. He loves you that much. Are you willing to take His hand and trust Him fully with your life? He will take care of you.
I have two videos for you to watch this week!
When you find the time, please listen to “The Well” by Casting Crowns. Remember, leave it all behind and come to Jesus.
“So bring me your heart. No matter how broken, just come as you are. When your last prayer is spoken, just rest in my arms a while. You’ll feel the change My Child when you come to the well. Leave it all behind, leave it all behind.” -Casting Crowns
I encourage everyone to listen to this motivational speech by Tauren Wells, a Christian Contemporary singer and he talks about how to fight your battles. This video has really helped me and I am thankful I listened to it when I did. I hope this helps you.