I really don’t know where to start.

The only thing major health wise in my life was having seizures when I was a child. I remember going to so many hospital visits and getting MRI’s done on my brain. I even remember having to get some kind of wrap that was on my head for a test. The doctors wrapped all of my hair and covered my entire scalp with the same material they do casts in, I remember it being orange. I had to even sleep with it on, I couldn’t just take it off because there were so many wires hooked up to it. I even remember crying and getting mad at my sister because she was wondering why I had this huge orange thing on my head, I felt like something was wrong with me.

I haven’t broken a single bone in my body.

I haven’t had anything major taken out of me – I do have my tonsils out and I gotten them taken out when I was little. I also had my wisdom teeth taken out in 2014 and I honestly think those are the two surgeries I have ever had in my entire life!

With that being said, finding out that I do have PCOS, is major for me. Side note: I documented my journey that leads to all of this – there are a total of six blog posts and you can read the first one here.

It was the morning of December 2, 2019. I was getting ready for school and it was another important day because it was the last day of going to an Elementary for a class.

My phone rang and I realized it was from a unknown caller, so I decided to let it go to voicemail.

I listened to the voicemail and it was a nurse from my Endocrinologist’s Doctors office. I called the nurse back.

She told me that my Endocrinologist looked at my blood test results (back from November 8, 2019) and said that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.

My mind honestly went blank because when I was listening to the voicemail, I thought maybe my Endocrinologist wanted me to get an ultrasound done because he took a long time to respond to the blood test results when I had my blood drawn on November 8.

I was still on the phone and the nurse was telling me about birth control, and how they can prescribe it to me right now while being on the phone. I told her how I’ll think about it and she told me to call her back when I have made a decision, I haven’t called back.

I know that if PCOS is left untreated, it’s going to get worse and women who have PCOS are at risk for heart disease, strokes, diabetes, and cancers. That’s if it’s left untreated or undiagnosed. There isn’t a cure for PCOS.

I teared up just a little when I got off the phone with the nurse and I couldn’t cry a lot because it was time for me to leave for class.

Right now, I feel calm because I was honestly driving myself crazy before I was told I have PCOS. It was the fear of the unknown and I was trying to figure out what was wrong. There is a story that leads up to knowing I have PCOS and I will tell y’all later on because right now I’m still trying to process all of this, and to find something that will work for my body. I have gone to see a Naturopathic Doctor, that is out because it’s honestly way too expensive and they don’t accept insurance! If I wasn’t a college student, I would might have gone that route and now, I’m going to go see a chiropractor. I am just looking at my options right now and finding something that will work for me – I want birth control to be the last option like if whatever I have decided doesn’t work for my body and if I have tried everything, birth control will be the last resort.

I know that birth control can’t be the only option to help PCOS.

I’m thankful that all of this happened when it did because this Fall semester has come to a close and I don’t know what I would have done if this happened towards the beginning of the semester. God’s timing is always perfect.

I’m thankful that I finally have a name to all of my symptoms I have told y’all.

I know now that PCOS was probably the cause of me throwing up on my period and the reason why I had to miss one day of class.

I know that PCOS doesn’t define me or my worth because I already know that my worth comes from God.

I do know that PCOS can cause infertility and I am not here to tell you that me getting pregnant in the future will be impossible. I have always dreamed of being a Mom someday and I was that little girl who loved to play with her baby dolls. I know that nothing is impossible, especially when God is in the middle of it.

I will also not look at other soon-to-be Mothers and think that it won’t ever be me. I refuse to think that way. I truly believe God has a plan, even when it’s difficult to see His perspective. In my eyes, every child is a sweet blessing.

I know that I’m going to be okay because God is with me and I will get through this with God by my side. He honestly has been with me this entire time of this journey I have taken y’all on.

There have been times where I wished I would go back to being my carefree self who didn’t even have to worry about her health and the times I didn’t have all of these hormonal issues. Honestly, it all started when I decided to start working out for my mental health and as months passed by, that’s when things started happening. I would also keep on ignoring it and tell myself that “let’s see if it happens again next month.” The throwing up for the first time on my period literally made me take action right away because I was scared and I knew I had to take myself to the doctor.

Thank y’all so much for reading this huge blog post and being here for me. I want to let everyone know that there won’t be a Kylie’s Corner on the blog for Friday. However, for those who attend my church and read the Kylie’s Corner & More blog, there will be a Kylie’s Corner in the Church bulletin for this weekend. It will be a much shorter version of this blog post because I feel like I need to let my church family know about this too.

I will be back on the normal schedule for the Kylie’s Corner & More blog next week💗

Lastly, there is a petition going around for people who have PCOS – we’re wanting the government to take PCOS seriously and spend their money on researching different treatments because like I have said, birth control can’t be the only option and from the doctors I have seen so far, that’s literally their only suggestion. They think that all of the symptoms will go away if I take birth control, but the thing is, I don’t want to be on it forever. What if I do decide to go off of it? I will be back to where I was before I was on birth control and that’s why I rather help fix my body naturally instead of only masking the symptoms.

Anyways, I ask if you can please sign this petition and I have already signed it.

I will miss y’all on Friday and instead of a Kylie’s Corner on the blog, I challenge you guys to do something kind for someone because we never know what someone might be going through. I’m also thankful I waited a week to process some of this before saying anything on here and I know I’m going to be ok, I’m in God’s hands and He will take care of me.

26 thoughts on “I Have PCOS.

  1. “But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.”
    ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭19:26‬ ‭KJV‬‬

    Faith can make a person whole!

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  2. ALL things are possible with God! I love your confidence and faith in the Most High! God will restore your hormones in Jesus name. I can testify about that. I didn’t see my periods for 2 years and my mom would have encouraged me to go see a doctor and I kept telling her “No.” I kept praying as she joined with me. We sent prayer requests to other parts of the body in the Lord as they believed with us. In 2015 is when it returned and started to regulate. Today it comes after every 1-2 months instead of skipping 3-6 months. It’s all because of God and His healing power upon my life. He has already turned it around for you and you will have children in Jesus name. God bless you and keep you strong in this season. I will sign the petition. Blessings! ❤

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    1. Yes!🙌🏻 Thank you for that sis, it means a lot to me! Amen to that! That’s amazing and I’m thankful yours returned – some women who have PCOS don’t get their period for months and I’m thankful that mine comes regularly! Amen. I know God always has a plan! Thank you for signing it and blessings to you too!✨💗

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  3. I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. While I don’t have PCOS I do have a couple of chronic illnesses and other things. I remember being diagnosed with fibromyalgia and eventually diabetes and the feelings I struggled with, still struggle with.

    Both the relief I felt at finally having a diagnosis as well as the grief and mourning I felt when it finally hit me I have an incurable disease that I now have to control through changing my lifestyle. It’s overwhelming but it does get better.

    My advice would be to learn as much as you can about PCOS but don’t get caught up in what you learn as it can be scary and overwhelming. Take some time first to just let it sink in and deal with the emotions and then arm yourself with knowledge and really fight for yourself.

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    1. I’m sorry about your diagnoses as well, Kirsten! We all have struggles and go through so many different things, it just makes us stronger than before! I totally know what you’re talking about, I felt relieved once I found out what was wrong and yes, it is a new lifestyle that we have to do things differently in a certain way. I think of it as a new life because we’re constantly making those changes to help us! Thank you for the encouragement and I hope you know that you’re not alone either, Kirsten. I have been researching it and I’m now implementing new foods into my every day life, I have also seen a chiropractor! It still hasn’t sunk in just yet because it doesn’t even feel real, but I know I will get better and I won’t stop fighting for my health. Keep on fighting for yourself too!✨💗

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    2. Hi Kylie! Beautifully written post and I love your positivity! I was diagnosed with PCOS last year and I can totally sympathize with how you feel in a lot of ways. It is definitely overwhelming to hear that something is wrong with you and then to learn about all the possible complications. I’m so happy to have come across your blog. I started my own blog about PCOS because I needed a place to get out my feelings and to put all the information I’ve found as I’ve learned more about this under diagnosed and under treated disorder. I also started this blog to be part of the PCOS community and come together with other women with PCOS to help one another. I agree with Kirsten – knowledge is power!

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      1. Hey Melissa! Aw, thank you so much for your sweet comment and welcome to my blog!! I write about my PCOS journey here and so many other topics about God, beauty in God’s eyes, our worth, and so much more! I’m thankful you found my blog because the whole entire reason I started sharing my journey was because I can spread awareness to those who don’t know what PCOS is and also make others who do have PCOS to not feel alone. I know how that it is and I hope you’re able to relate to my blog posts about PCOS! I will definitely be checking your blog out! I’m so proud of you that you’re spreading awareness of PCOS too and sharing your journey with others! I don’t know about you, but my Endocrinologist wanted to put me on birth control right away and I didn’t want to do that to my body! It’s crazy how Doctors think that birth control is our only option for PCOS and it’s not! I’m sharing my journey because my main goal is that I want to balance my hormones naturally and I talk about everything I have been doing to help me achieve that goal! I have a Pinterest board that has all the blog posts I have written in order because each blog post builds off another, so it’s kinda like a series – I will link the Pinterest Board below! Thank you again for your sweet comment and yes, knowledge is power!✨🙌🏻💗

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      2. Thanks for reaching out! I am so excited to follow along with your journey. I was on birth control for ten years and when I got off it I was very irregular. I also had other symptoms as well. That’s when I decided that I needed to find out more about my symptoms. My doctor recommended birth control but didn’t push it. I’ve been off birth control for two years now and it’s great. I went searching for ways to help my symptoms naturally and during my research I found various blogs. Then I became inspired! It has been hard telling people about PCOS and having them go “well seems like you don’t need to worry about it unless you want to have kids” or because it can be more of an invisible disorder people say “doesn’t seem like a big deal.” It can be very disheartening and isolating. The PCOS isn’t a huge community, so I wanted to add to it in any way that I can! Nevertheless, I look forward to reading your series!!

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      3. Thank you for reaching out to me too! I’m excited to read your blog! I have done research about birth control and I have read that it only masks our symptoms and doesn’t do anything to help us! That’s good your Doctor didn’t force it upon you because I had another Doctor try to push it on me and I had to explain why I didn’t want to be on birth control! I actually stopped seeing my Endocrinoligist and I started seeing two different chiropractors – one of them I go to for adjustments and acupuncture! I didn’t know that getting those two things done once a week will help balance out my cycle; it also helps my period become less painful! Then, the other chiropractor is also a dietition and he has been helping me with supplements! I talk more about it my blog posts, but that is what I have found that has been helping my body and mental health without being on birth control! I’m so happy that you stopped taking birth control and fixing our hormones naturally does take a really long time, it is a long process, but it’s going to be worth it versus going the fast route where you see results quickly while on birth control, but then not seeing any improvements as you come off of it. I wish people wouldn’t say those things because it’s better to figure out what is going on with your body right now and trying to fix it before you even want kids, so you don’t have to be figuring it all out during the moment you’re wanting kids. That’s what I’m trying to do right now because one day I do want kids and I don’t want to be figuring all of this out in the future; I rather help my body right now instead of waiting until that moment. I hope that makes sense! It does seem like PCOS isn’t real because we can’t physically see it, but it affects our entire life – I have been learning to eat the right foods for my body, decrease my sugar intake, I take five supplements every day, I workout almost every day because it helps my mental health so much, and there’s so much more that comes with having PCOS that other people just don’t understand because they haven’t been through what we have been through or are currently going through. I’m also happy I found someone on here that I can also relate to and we will make the PCOS community better together by sharing our stories with others! I also look forward to reading your blog as well and I can’t wait for you to read the series!

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      4. Yes, birth control masking the symptoms is what I’ve seen and experienced! Oh chiropractors – I haven’t thought about that! I’ve started to look into supplements so that’s good hear! You’re spot on – we have the time now for ourselves so we should work on ourselves! Once kids come into the picture, a lot of that time goes to them! People can empathize, but they can’t necessarily sympathize unless they have PCOS too. But that’s great – it sounds like you’ve found a good routine that’s working for you! I’m in the process of figuring out what foods are working and not working and I’ve been getting up before work and working out 4-5 days which has made a tremendous impact! Yay for helping ourselves and our mental health!

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      5. Really? I’m thankful you got off of it when you did!☺️ I didn’t think going to a chiropractor would have an impact on my cycle and mental health, but I was so wrong!! It has tremendously helped me and that is also something you can try to see if it helps you! Yes, so true!🙌🏻 Yeah, they can’t really understand what PCOS like until they do have it. All we can do is keep on talking about our struggles that come with PCOS to spread awareness to show that it’s a huge deal that we have to figure out what works for our body and sometimes it takes trial and error! I know you will find a routine that works for you too! I can so relate, working out helps my mental health so much! Yes, that’s so important and should always be a priority! I’m proud of you for going the natural route to help your body and I know you will figure out what works for you!✨

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