**If you have read this first paragraph already from the previous blog post, you can skip over it! **
September is the month of spreading awareness of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), so for the entire month of September, the topics will be geared towards PCOS every Wednesday because not many people know what it is and I was one of those people who didn’t know. I got diagnosed with PCOS back in December of 2019 and I have been sharing my journey way before I found out what I had. I have an entire Pinterest Board that has all the blog posts I have written about my PCOS Journey and you can find it here. I have written about my own symptoms, the bloodwork I had done (it was a lot of rounds), my experience with Doctors telling me birth control was my only option and how it was either that or just suffer with my syptoms. I have expressed my concerns about birth control to the Doctors and I stood my ground. I have also been to a naturopathic doctor only one time and I haven’t talked about that experience because it was an unusual experience. Plus, I ended up taking a different route. I talk about getting other tests done, getting acupuncture and adjustments done at the chiropractor (that has helped me physically and mentally), I also have seen another chiropractor who is also a dietitian and he helped me with the supplements that I needed to take, and I explain everything that I have tried, so I encourage you to read the blog posts that I have on the Pinterest board I have for my PCOS Journey.
Two weeks ago we talked about what Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) was, last week I talked to y’all about what I struggled with physically about having PCOS and now, I’m going to talk to y’all about the struggles I face mentally that comes with having PCOS!
This post might be deep and dark because you’re going to get a glimpse of what being in my mind is like. My mind can get dark and other times I’m my happy, care-free self, but it can be a struggle to get back to being happy.
The thing with having PCOS is that women are more likely to have anxiety and depression than women who don’t have PCOS.
Before I was diagnosed, I did have anxiety and I just thought maybe it was a part of me because I was always this shy and quiet girl to other people.
I don’t recall dealing with depression way before I was diagnosed with PCOS, but a month ago, my mind was so dark and it felt like I was in a dark hole that I just couldn’t get out of no matter how hard I tried. I talk about it this blog post. All I could see was the negativity all around me and I wanted to escape from it all. I cried a lot and I barely had the energy to do things, none the less get myself out of bed.
Through this dark time of my life, there were so many changes happening that I had to work through and accept things for how they were. I had to get used to these changes and I’m still working on it. It’s hard to simply let things go that are out of your control, you know?
Ever since I started taking inositol, my mental health has been better and I feel like I have had less anxiety and depression, but there have been times where my mood would quickly go downhill.
Right now, I’m working on my mental health and doing what is best for myself.
I tell myself that I just want to be happy in my life and love every aspect of it. I know I will get there.
Right after I was diagnosed with PCOS, there was a wave of sadness rushing through my mind because I was worried about not being able to have kids like at all. I was so scared of the unknown, but now, I rest in knowing that God is in control and if He wants it to happen, it will happen and if he doesn’t, then He has something so much greater in mind for me. I find peace in knowing that He is in control and He will always find a way to make something that seem so impossible, possible. I just don’t worry so much about that anymore.
Another thing I have been working on is realizing that the problems I face with my body are valid and I shouldn’t compare what I have to what someone else is struggling with. I tend to keep my emotions all bottled up instead of expressing them to people because I feel like some people won’t understand what it’s like for me.
Having acne also affected me mentally because it seemed like whatever I did or tried, my face would never clear up and it still seems that way at times, I always felt the need to cover it up with makeup because I felt ashamed and I didn’t know why my face had a hard time clearing up; it all made sense when I got diagnosed with PCOS because I knew it was all hormonal.
The lower back pain also started affecting my mental health just a little because last week I was in so much pain to the point I was in tears. That was the first time I have cried because of having lower back pain. It was painful. I also cried because I had no idea why my lower back kept hurting. It’s September 10 as I’m writing this blog post and I have had lower back pain for five out of the ten days of September so far. It’s difficult when you want to do something like workout or do some yoga and you know that you can’t when your lower back hurts because it will just make the pain worse.
I’m not complaining at all, this is me simply explaining exactly how I feel at times without sugar coating it – that’s the thing about me, I’m real with y’all and will tell it how it is!
We all struggle with something that a few people are able to understand and relate to. It’s ok because only you really know what it’s like.
I hope you found this blog post somewhat educational and it seems like we all face battles with our mind. You’re not alone, we will get through this together.
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For those of you who are new here, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) in December of 2019. I have been documenting everything that I have been through and experienced – from discussing my symptoms before I knew what was wrong, all the way to what I am doing now to help my body. My goal is to balance my hormones naturally without taking birth control. I want to give other women with PCOS hope that birth control isn’t the only option. All of the details about My PCOS journey Pinterest board can be found here.
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